a new part

    

I am adding a new instrament to my playing ability. Can you guess what Im going to play? You guessed it, guitar. I want to learn for two different reasons. I have always wanted to try it out. Being a string player myself I have a respect for any string instrament. I dont believe its going to be that hard. I have already learned how to play a string instrament in the past. I'll just have to learn the frets and the tabs and pratice and I shoule be good. I believe it is a beautiful instrament and it will be an honor to be able to make music with it. Thats not the only reason that I want to do it.

The next reason is because I view it as a way to invite others into worship. I enjoy playing music and nothing more would I like to see and do is to be able to use the gift that God has given me to help me in my own worship but also to help others. I play violin and I do a little bit of bongoing. I enjoy worshiping God through music because I know that it is something that I am passionate about and that Im good at. I view worship as a beautiful intimate experience, and I would be apart of it 24/7 if I could. at least coporate worship that is.  Psalm 95:6 states " Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the LORD our Maker;" Thats amazing that the same God that is worthy of our worship, took the time to encounter and provide a way for us to worship Him. I love to engage people in worship because its something that I enjoy doing myself. I want to learn another instrament so that I can join up with my churches worship team as well as our small group worship team. i believe that this is where God wants me to use my talent to play music to use it for Him and turn it into a beautiful thing that honors Him. It would be an honor to be apart of that.

I'll leave u with this Psalm 96:9 says: Worship the LORD in the splendor of his holiness; tremble before him, all the earth. He's worthy of it. Will you act on it

Let me love like You :)

I have been doing a reading through of Franic Chan's book entitled "Crazy Love" for some time now. The Lord smacks me across the face everytime I pick it up to read. The beginning talks about how BIG God is and how little we are, how we a little part of His whole creation, but He still chooses to persue a relationship with us. That to me blows my mind. The second part shows us and basically called me out on being a lukewarm christian. I feel that it was a harsh reality check for me. In the third chapter of Revelation, Christ states that if we are lukewarm He will spit us out of His mouth. Scary right?

Alright let me get to the point, i was reading today about the obsessed people who love God.  One quote that stood out to me was "Obessed People love those who hate them and who can never love them back." I had an experience this past year with loving someone. It was my roomate second semester. He didnt believe in God and He told me that He would not pick on my beliefs, but towards the end of the semester it got worse. He ended up telling me that I was reading a book of fairy tales one night. That really boiled me but I decided to keep it cool. I tried talking with Him but it didnt work. Luckily my friends came down and I left the room. I can't stand it when people diss my beliefs. Christ reminded me of something tonight, I need to show Godly love to people that need it. Sometimes it may be the only love of God that they ever get. I was reminded of that because I lived in the International dorm this past year. The book stated that true faith is loving a person after they have hurt you or brought you down. My human response to this is why must I love this person after what they did to me? but then the question is do I pray and love them as Christ loves me?

my talents

I have been thinking about the talents that the Lord has given me recently.

Everything that He has given me to my knowledge comes from using my hands.

To think that out of these impure hands can create masterpieces is beyond me.

I can't begin to understand my gifting because I cant begin to understand the God who provided me with the abilites and talents.

God got me into music at an early age. I have always been into music but it wasn't until I went to middle school that I picked up my first instrament: the violin. I love that instrament and it is an honor to play an instrament as beautiful as that. I began to fall in love with classical music and I stayed with it to this day. I had a dream last night, I was standing there with an acoustic guitar over my neck in front of a whole audience. I dont know if thats where God wants me but I kinda have a feeling thats where He wants me. I know He didnt put me in music for just for the sole purpose of entertaining, He wants me to use it to bring others into worship.

I have started to write poetry. Its something that I like to do on occasion. When I have the time I just sit down and start to write. The ideas keep flowing out, usually I write about my struggles in life and then others I use to praise God but in ALL of my poems He is the center fold of it all. The freedom to express yourself in words is amazing to me. If I could ever perform my poems I would because I want the name of Jesus to be out there. Here's an exert from one of my strongest poems to date:

 I ask myself

Why?

Why do I place you on a shelf?

And do things that make me cry?

I know you are displeased

but I ask myself why do I keep doing this.

I've cried...

The thirst for you has been dried.

Im desprate for you

to come and renew this broken heart.

Let the Holy Water spew...

forth, come to my rescue.

I have been given the gift to draw. I have drawn multiple things. You can find them on my facebook page of on my deviant art account. It freely allows me to express myself and what I want to do. I helps me get through my day and releaves stress. Here's some of my work.

Night.

send the rains Lord



I'm looking outside and it is lightning and thundering. Not to mention to raining very hard. To see the lightning in the sky is amazing, the beautiful streaks as they come down from the sky. I just  think of our wonderous Savior who created it. The past two times I've gone down to pray and seek the Lord. It has been storming. I believe the rain is a symbol of the Lord cleaning off the sinfulness of this world. In a sense He is refreshing us. In the city of Greensboro alone there are over 10 clubs in the area. Those are places where people can go to "loosen" up a bit and get their minds away from the stressfulness of this life. It is here where people go and bite off more than they can chew, such as getting drunk and possibly giving up something you are supposed to save for marriage. We see it and we call upon the name of the Lord. We ask Him to send the rains and wind. The rain serves as a refreshment, something that I believe that this city needs.

I came across this song a while back. It's called Rain Down by Jesus Culture.

looks like tonight, the sky is heavy
Feels like the winds are gonna change Beneath my feet, the earth is ready
I know its time for heaven's rain, it's gonna rain

Cos its living water we desire to flood our hearts with holy fire

Rain down, all around the world we're singing
Rain down can you here the earth is singing
Rain down all around your people singing
Rain down rain it down on me.
Back to the start, my heart is heavy Feels like its time, to dream again
I hear Your voice, and yes I'm ready
To live the life to sing Your song, to sing Your song
Yes I belong

and Do Not Shut

Do Not Shut

Do not shut the Heavens

But Open Up

Open Up

Open Up My Heart.

Jesus this is my prayer to you. I love you so much Father. Continue to pour out your love onto this place.

Pursuing towards greatness

I was outside doing my quiet time recently and the Lord directed me to the book of Philippians. It's crazy how the Lord works sometimes because this is just what I needed to study. The whole central theme of this book is pursuing "Christlikness." It's like this: when we are born we are babies, as we grow we become into youth and then onto being an adult. Well the Christian walk is like that. When we are born again we are a spiritual baby and as we begin to understand scripture we grow continually into a spiritual adult.

I know how it is to be a spiritual baby, in fact before I came to college that is what I was. I had been saved but I had not been getting "spiritually fed" and I was living in my sin. It wasn't until I was about to graduate from high school that I desired to be spiritually fed and in tune with God. I was eager and ready for change. It's wasn't until second semester and before that winter break before I started to notice things that didn't add up. I have grown so much in my walk with God because this semester its mind bogging. I guess God is making up for all those years that I missed out on. Thats what I love about Him, His mercy.

The verse that stuck out to me was is Philippians 1:21 "To live as Christ, and to die is gain." I knew that this verse was something that the Lord wanted me to remember because I had been repeating it all day. I broke it down to make it simple. In order to go full out for Christ we need to be willing to give Him everything. We need to be willing to die to this world. It has nothing for us anyway. There is so much pain and hurt in this world its not even funny. You will be persicuted for your beliefs if you stand for Christ, but He goes out to prepair a place for you and directs the path. Isn't that comferting to know?? That the Lord goes out before you? That should give us hope and not fear. There's light at the end of the tunnel. Keep going.

Greater Things

This past week God has shown himself to me in more ways that I can imagine and I thought that I would share with you all. 

First off...

I have seen the Lord all over my college campus

I attend a public university in Greensboro, North Carolina. We are not a christian university. I believe that the Lord is going to change that. We have over 30 campus ministries at least and I believe that it is where the Lord is going to inspire and rise up college students to help reach this campus for the Lord. I believe with all of my heart that God is doing something on the campus of UNCG. The Lord is changing this campus and ministries are being started and people are getting to know Christ on a deeper level and some people they meet the Lord here. He is def. here. I did my quiet time in Foust Park and I looked up in the trees and I saw the face of the Lord. His presence was with me. 

Second off...

Greensboro is GOING to be reached for the Gospel. 

This past week, I had the opportunity to go pray downtown with a group of people. We went and prayed on top of one of the parking decks. We got out of our cars and immediately went around to find a spot to pray. We got in a circle and cried out our desires for this city to be reached, while we were together a storm was rolling in and we saw the lighting. I believed that it was the rain of refreshment that was washing away the impurities of the city. I knew the Lord was with us because I looked up and I swore I could see angels in the clouds. I felt him on that deck. We eventually got up to pray alone and I felt God telling me that I needed to get fully right with Him. I have fallen back into old habits but the Lord has redeemed me. I gave that up and Im not going back to where I was. Its an uphill battle but I'm getting out of the valley. We got back and we decided to walk around the city to pray for people. My group walked around for a while, and we then met back up in the park. I met up with one group and I sat down and talked with this muslim guy that we had met. We were sharing what we believed and he did as well. Then one of my friends recieved a prophetic word from God about His life. He understood where she was coming from and we explained to him where the source of the information came from. We prayed for him and then we got up to leave. A couple girls stayed behind and talked with him some more and he sparked an intrest in knowing the Lord a little better. He gave his number and extention to my friend Anna and told our pastor to have him give us a call. I feel that it was a divine appointment and it wasnt by accident that He came down. 

The Lord is amazing yall. :)

Another Year Gone.



I can't believe that this year is over already.

One year of college behind me, crazy.

I am so thankful for everything and for what God has done. He picked me up and brought me out of the darkness. (:

This Semester I.....

I got to walk around and take photos... and lots of them.

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Went to Tribeca on a mission trip for spring break.

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Rode the Subway for the first time.
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Went to Times Square
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Had New York Pizza


Went Sledding and got sick. :(
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Found a New Church in Greensboro, found some awesome people there.
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Went Zip Lining
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Thats about it but there's one more thing I wanted to share with you.
It's my family. we can be goofy at times but I love them.
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I said we could be goofy. UNCG I'll miss you. See u in a couple months