Calling

I am empty,
I'm am a dead soul, my body is weak.
I walk around malls this way.. People staring my way as I walk past. They say 'are you okay' or 'what's your problem'... But I know I was destined for greatness, I know of someone who thinks im to die for.....

In Him I am made complete. I lay my head on that pillow knowing daily that He is in control. My light grows as I begin to trust Him and lean on Him. See life's not a 'walk in the park' as we call it. No friends life's a struggle, we must due to self, that's a hard thing. Daily I fight with my flesh, not to fall into temptation. You see I'm like this because a guy named adam sinned and broke Gods law. So I'm sinful by nature thanks to Him. Living 4 Him is the life and is better than the life I once lived. I might look weird but baby I'm doing what I'm supposed to do and living the way I'm called to.

Hanging Out with Jesus

This past semester the Lord has really told me one simple thing: 'Sit Back and rest.' Thats a hard thing for me because I always like to do things. I've been learning to hear God's voice, but this year as a whole, 2011. God has chosen this year for me to see Him. Until recently I had only seen Him once. A month or two ago, I just felt led to go in front of the Lord. I felt like I was supposed to lay down on the chair. I did I closed my eyes and I told God, I said "God, I want to rest in You, its what You, here I am do what ya want." I said that and just laid there, I've blogged about this experience before but that was one of the first times that I had ever seen hung out with Him or even seen Him. Granted I dont know how He looks, because no one really knows what He looks like but I went by what pictures I had seen of Him.

Then yesterday I was bored so I decided to hang out with a friend. We were playing a game and I happened to look over at a chair and see Jesus.. He looked intrested in what we were doing. My friend gets these sights of Him as well, she see's Him as her husband, which is cool in my book. We got to talking that whatever way we might need Him, thats how He reveals himself to us. For me its a support person. He is always there to help me when Im down. He is always there, always has His hands on me, praying for me. Its such an encouragement. Its great to know that I have someone who loves me that much and supports me through all the tough times, someone who forgives me even when I dont love back. Thats true love people. I believe  that I have grown so much closer to Him this year than all the years that I've been saved.

There's Hope

I'm thinking to myself, after being in a dark place. I wonder if there is anything out there. I look up and in pure spite of myself I look up. There's light.

There's Hope

I look around.. I dont see anyone looking my way. I start to climb very quietly. I make it up halfway.

There's Hope.

I keep climbing until I reach the top. Each step I take I get closer and closer to my goal, my prize. I make it out on top. Massive light is shown around me, I am filled with the utermost joy and satisfaction.

There's Hope.

I look up and i see where the light is coming from, its upon a hill, quickly I follow the light, running and persuing it with all that I have. Down the hill I go, across the river and up the hill I go to reach the light.

There's Hope.

I cant believe what I see, my eyes are awestruck, I can no longer contain myself. I fall to my kness and worship. I say to myself that there is Hope.

(its my prayer that YOU would put your trust in Christ if you havent done so.)

Photo moments

Ive gotten into photography here's some of my works.

Come

Yesterday I got the opportunity to go to an awesome worship service to support a friend. It was awesome to see her and she what she does best: sing. But the theme was 'A Generation that Worship's"

We live in such a corrupt world that the name of Christ doesn't shake most people. A world that has turned away from the only love that we have or could ever need. It breaks my heart that we have ignored that kind of love. John 10:10 states ' I have come so that they may have life and live it to the fullest.' That means we can live however we choose as it is in Christ and is by the Bible. You don't have to stay quiet, you can be yourself. Just look at me, I am an art major at a very liberal arts school, where the Gospel is not proclaimed in the department. I believe that God has placed me there to be an example and a light in the darkness. I do what I do because I know it's what He wants for my life and I display my work because I want to please Him. I hope I'm a light to the darkness. I am a musician that plays guitar, I'm not good yet but I do it because again I believe its part of what He wants. My point in all this is that you don't have to change who you are in order to follow Christ. He says come as you are... so you don't have to become something your not, be yourself, be the person that you were meant to be. There's so much freedom in the Lord. If He isn't over your life I would challenge you to accept the greatest person that will change your life for the best. He doesn't ask you to change who you are, He loves you, just follow in His footpaths for your life, I promise you your life will never be the same :)

Dying to self

In life we are called to make sacrifices. Whether that be our time, money or other things we must always think about having a kingdom mindset. I'm not a perfect being by far but according to Romans I was dead in my sin, I needed a Savior and then God worked it all out for me by providing me with His son. But it talks about being slaves to the Gospel. How we are not slaves to sin any longer but we are slaves to righteousness. It talks about honoring God with everything.

Wait a min. You're saying that I have to honor Him in every aspect? YES. It says don't use your body to do un godly things with it, when you do that you are dishonoring him and mocking Him. I struggle with this... And it's a daily battle but I know that with Christ on my side that I can conquer anything the devil tries to place in my way. Instead it says use your members to glorify Him? How can I do that? Live your salvation everywhere you go, school, in your room, with friends etc. Live it out and be a living sacrifice to God because He gave it up for you. Die to yourself everyday is something I need to make a habit Of doing daily. I need to spend more time in the word too because i feel that is what the devil uses to get to me. My prayer is that I would continent stay strong in the faith and will Persia my prize which is my king and my city in the sky. Pray with me

Worship

So my semester is finally coming to a close. Here I am sitting typing this. I have a week left until winter break. I cant believe that it has flown by this fast. God is so amazing, this is been a time that I have really just gotten to hang out with God, and just relax and catch up on things. Sometimes I believe that He wants that from me. I feel as if He wants me to somehow slow down in what Im doing and just worship at his feet. I do that by playing guitar and singing... I recently wrote a song called "alleujah" I thought I'd share the lyrics, mediatate and worship to them and reflect on how He has moved in your life. Worship Him! its totally worth your time, trust me. Enjoy:

Humbly I Come

Seeking Your Face

I Want to Feel You Near

I Seek Your Face

Hear Me as I Cry

Alleujah, Alleujah

I Worship You

Alleujah, to the King of Kings

I Look Up

I See You

I Know Your Here

I Fall on my Knees and Say

Alleujah, Alleujah

I Worship You

Alleujah, to the King of Kings.

Be blessed this Holiday Season

Todays message really hit home with me: it was talking about sin originated... many people believe that sin enterned into the world when Adam first sinned.. That is true but sin Originiated with the devil.

According to Genesis, God created everything and had Adam reign over all the creatures of the world. God favored Him, that He even let Him name them. I believe that to be an awesome privilage. But he had to screw it up, the devil getting in the way as always,they wanted to rebel against God because they thought that they could become like God, a thought that would mess up life as we know it today. Therefore sin entered the world and hence where we are today. 

But's that not where the story ends

Scripture talks of a man named Jesus, how was God in the flesh, He came to this earth lived a perfect 33 years and then gave His life for US so that we could have life, and not only that we could reign with Him forever.  Where Adam failed... Christ covered... Where sin abounds, Grace abounds even more. I thank God everyday that He is in my life because without Him I am nothing. I'm a flower quickly fading (CC Song) thats here for a short time, lets not waste it. 

I'm am learning and seeking complete Lordship to God... I am learing to trust in Him fully and completely.. I still have some set backs in my life that the devil tries to get me on but . Taking myself off the throne and putting Him where He needs to be is a goal of mine. I am learning what it means to die to myself and totally live for Him, I still dabble in my past and sometimes slip up but I am learning from my mistakes and growing in my faith ten fold. I view Lordship as "Go Hard or Go Home", one of my favorite christian rappers has a song by that name and the message is simple: Live for me or just stop trying. If your not gonna give Him all then why give some?? I ponder that question and Im speaking to myself I deal with that to. It really gives me a chance to fully examine it and it reminds me my need for a Savior. So thank You God that You love a sinner like me. :)