So What have I been up to?



School is the main part... I am into the sixth week of my second year of college at UNCG. School is more stressful just getting back into the swing of things but I know that I will come out on top and it will be okay.

My life at this moment is like an up and down roller coaster or at least it has been. I guess this is the Lords way of reminding me of what was said to me at the end of the semester. The Lord is testing me. I know it I can feel it. There are days where I dont understand things and I get mad or fustrated at myself. I feel sometimes that I cry out to God and I don't immediately hear Him, but thats okay because He will work it out for the good of those who love Him. I've been dabling in the same things that I have discussed before. Me and my friends did this little assignment today and here it goes: (i'll give my answers)
1. Close your eyes.
2. Picture yourself walking. I was walking along a gravel path
3.Now invite the Lord to join you. I saw the Lord in a white robe, with a blue sash, long hair, beard, etc.
4.Ask Him to take you to a place. He took me to a garden, with waterfalls and very white light
5. Ask Him if there is anything you need to do. I feel as if you are holding onto something, guilt maybe
6. If yes, open up to recieve what He's giving you. Promises Healing and Restoration for me.
7. If there is anything else? No.

The Lord has really been teaching me to focus on Him, and not lean on my own understanding. Thats hard for me but it's something I'll have to learn. Trust is another thing for me as well. Trusting Him with all that I have. This semester Im thankful for a group of guys that hold me accountable. Thanks to that, I have been able to remain pure except for a few instances, but I never will quit on my God, He never stopped persuing me so I wont either.. That image means new beginnings in Christ to me, Im a flower that is about to bloom. Devil watch out... I will bring you down.

"Therefore if anyone is in Christ,he is a new creation; old things are passed away;behold, all things are made new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

Ownership..

I stumbled upon this in my sermon notes from last night. We talked about how God creates. How He forms out of nothing, how He molds us together, how He allows us to to live and a chance to live fully out for Him. I serve a beautiful God, He is the only God, He is so personal with us His creation if we are in Christ. We are all His children but some of us He is still looking for. You look around and see His beautiful creation that He has made. There has to be a reason for all this being here, why we humans are here. Its awesome to know that the Lord has created this place and that He wants to be apart of it and lastly where would I be without grace? Eternal seperation from a Holy God, thats where. He is so beautiful and mighty. I cant wrap my mind around just who He is to me... It's impossible for me too. A profound point made last night was If we dont understand that God created us, then we wont understand our sin. Creation is a focal point of what I believe. This is true for everyone, if we dont acknowledge that there is a God then we wont understand sin nature. We would live life everyday how we want, not under the ownership of anyone or anything, God is the creator so therefore He owns us because He made us. So there we see that we cant live for ourselves, or our own gain. We serve someone else, who is bigger and powerful than we will ever be. Surrender is something we need to understand alot. We need to see the bigger picture. Like when we look at a beautiful garden or place, rather than looking at the creation we need to look at the creator because He is the only one who matters.